by Bran-Raeven » 07 Oct 2008, 10:48
i looked for you at samhuinn
i looked for you at samhuinn
but i didn't find you there
my friend, some time's been passing
since we shared bed and woes
I took your love for granted,
your breath to mine always be close
now moons and suns have risen
and fell again, you are no more
I've cried, I've lived, I've mourned and risen
but still this pain remains
now still this hope that sparks in me
to look for you in ancient rites
for I've been told by druid's tongues
that samhuinn is when curtains fall
that when the rites be done in faith
departures will be made undone
so I read books and asked the wise
and everything I did, prepared
for I would not leave one thing forgotten
to bring you once back to me, my friend
I brought candles, black and white,
a chalice, wand and shaman's drums
brought incense, rattle, sacrifice
and runes to lift the secret
set them in order rightfully
so true magic can be done
I asked the winds, the fire, the north, the south,
and every spirit in this world
I chose the perfect time and sphere,
cleared all my mind and soul
I danced and chanted all night long
cast spells and flames and rites
would sit there in this darkest night,
yet search for you in vain
with trembling voice I called for you,
despair now rising and the pain
the moon would shine and wane again,
leave me to the star's cold gaze
and still I waited, prayed and begged
to have you - just one glimpse
but as I waited, cried and tried
my senses failed and died
in darkness I would lie alone
not knowing time nor space
until the morning glow would wake
the perfect rite and time, all gone
wasted, failed and still alone
tears merging now with dew
still without you, I would rise
empty, slain and full of fear
my eyes would fall on fires of dawn,
on mists, on trees, where once we walked
and as I stared, still dazed in pain
tears rolling down my face
it struck me as I realized
you have been there all along
the moon, your eyes, watched over me
only to turn into your smile, the sun
my hands that touched soft grass in awe
had been stroking your fair hair
the whispering willow had been your voice
your wild laughter in the wind
your spirit in the owl, the lizard
every raindrop a touch of your skin
it was then when I realized my err
I had not lost you, never so
i looked for you at samhuinn
but i didn't find you there
i found you in the world around me
deep in my soul within
for my beloved soul companion Cooper