My father died 3 weeks ago today. He was 76 and had been fighting cancer for 2 years. So it wasn't unexpected, but at the same time, it's been a great shock. He's been there all my life (obviously) and I keep doing mental double-takes when I remember that he has died. There's a huge hole in our family now and I can't see how we'll ever get used to it.
I miss him so much, despite not seeing him that often, he was always there, pottering around at home and now when I visit my mother, the house seems emptier and emptier.
Although I firmly believe he's moved on to another plane, still I cannot seem to reconnect with my own spirituality - I've stalled on the Bardic course, which was an utter pleasure to me before. I can't be bothered to draw my daily angel cards or play with my tarot. I am due to take Reiki III and IV in a few weeks time and I can't summon any enthusiasm for that. Reiki didn't seem to help one iota when he was alive.
Anyway, this was not meant to be about me, but a way of reconnecting with OBOD and letting people know where I have been.