Still missing my special son, it’s just past the 12 anniversary of his passing.
There was an outbreak of meningitis at the hospital when he was born he was only 2 month old when he caught it and was left paralysed I nursed him till he passed over aged 24.
Poems I have written, and one by his brother.
Leon my son
My dear sweet Leon so quiet now
Not a sound is heard,
I wonder around the house now so still
The clock still ticking,
I look into your room, so empty now
My heart still breaking,
The sun is shining down where you slept
I straiten your pillow
I wont to hold you and never let you go,
My arms are empty,
Sitting here sobbing, rocking back and forth
No longer quiet.
Not today please
The door opens I step out onto the path I look up at the sky, a cold bright February day the sun is shining but a mist is upon my eyes; people are gathering around then I see the lovely flowers, yes today now is the day.
My life has been turn upside down this last week, new this day would come, but pushed it away into the bottom corner of my heart. Deep down so as not to feel the rising pain the Doctors said this day would come, I thought if I didn’t think about this day it would never come so I banish it from my world.
A word is whispered in my ear, I feel the pain rising its so overwhelming I try to keep it down, then again “Are you ready”? Someone takes my hand I feel dizzy can hardly stand. "Do you need a moment more?" The man asks I stand there my head spinning.
My heart is breaking I can no longer push the pain into that corner so deep down, I try to speak but can only hear my heart beating. I try to hold back the tears welling up inside, the pain now filling every part of my body.
I look up at the sky such a lovely day. I look then at the kind man standing here holding out his hand.
I take it and nod as I can not speech, yes now is the day the day I tried so hard to forget, I look at the coffin draped in flowers of every colour. Now its time to say good bye to my beautiful special son, the day I wished would never come.
Leon Time to let go
My dear's Leon,
It's been a long sad time since you left.
The house has been empty without you,
Every day I Speak your name,
Hopping to ease the pain.
I feel your presence,
You ask me to let you go,
Leon I know its time, I let you go,
So with heavy heart I say,
Good night and God bless.
Love you always my special son,
I will look after your teddy,
He will keep me company in the night,
Until we meet again,
I send this goodnight kiss.
Forever loving and missing you.
2000 Scattered Ashes
This poem was written by his brother know as Oakman on the forum, he was only nine when he wrote it and it was read out at Leon’s funeral just 2 years later.
In the start of my time
Why did nature commit a crime?
You may not think I feel pain
But I assure you I am just the same
If you don’t treat me like a toy
God will bring happiness laughter and joy
If you catch me cough or wheezing
Don’t shout or call me displeasing
At last when my time has come
Don’t cry and be glum
For some just like me are at rest and free