I was very moved by your story.
It's been thirty years since I lost my Dad. I was denied a very close relationship with him due to my parents' divorce, and then a senseless act of violence no one saw coming from an ex-girlfriend of his.
I feel it's important to keep relationships with the one's we love very close, because, as many others here can attest to, we never know when it's time to move on to the otherworld.
Blessings on you and yours!