My father

[Annaoj]

My father died 3 weeks ago today. He was 76 and had been fighting cancer for 2 years. So it wasn't unexpected, but at the same time, it's been a great shock. He's been there all my life (obviously) and I keep doing mental double-takes when I remember that he has died. There's a huge hole in our family now and I can't see how we'll ever get used to it.

I miss him so much, despite not seeing him that often, he was always there, pottering around at home and now when I visit my mother, the house seems emptier and emptier.

Although I firmly believe he's moved on to another plane, still I cannot seem to reconnect with my own spirituality - I've stalled on the Bardic course, which was an utter pleasure to me before. I can't be bothered to draw my daily angel cards or play with my tarot. I am due to take Reiki III and IV in a few weeks time and I can't summon any enthusiasm for that. Reiki didn't seem to help one iota when he was alive.

Anyway, this was not meant to be about me, but a way of reconnecting with OBOD and letting people know where I have been.

SR.

[Dryadia2]

For your Father
For you, Silverrain
Thoughts & Prayers
Strength & Comfort
Peace & Blessings

[skydove]

Hi Silverrain,
So sorry to hear about the death of your father. we do not know how deeply we are connected to our friends and family till something happens and they are no longer there. Take your time to remember and feel and take it all in the good and the bad, the memories, the regrets, the what ifs. Push aside those things which are less important at the moment, there will come a time when you can explore them again but this is important what you are going through, don't feel worried or guilty that you are not doing the things that you think should be a comfort and a help. I found it was the very small inconsequential things which hit me either making me feel sad or very happy in a strange sort of way, be gentle with yourself and your family it affects us all deeply but differently.

[luisa]

It is always difficult even when expected, I have been through the same too.

Accept all your emotions, I went through many different emotions when it happened from love to anger I felt it all.


My thoughts and my love are with you Silverrain .

A for your father.

Love
Luisa

[Wolfdance]

I'm so sorry about your dad.

Allow yourself to grieve in your own time and season. My mom passed away last year, and I still have the "double take" feeling sometimes when I realize that she's no longer on this plane -- though, as she has reminded me in my meditations, she's never any further away than inside my heart.

Be easy on yourself, and take care.

[Tynan Elder Oak]

Dear one my love and peace to you... I went through similar when Ma died, and even though she worked Shamanically and wasa druid as we, AN D we knew she was dying and had prepared for it in as best way we could as her loved ones and grove members; when it actually happened it was still a shock and I too kept thinking it was her on hte phone, or at the door.... All that can be said in truth is to allow yourself the freedom to process all of this as well as you can, the pain and loss may not go but it does change in character and peace does come... also if you feel you can, go to the sacred grove and ask your ancestors for comfort, and help, they know all about you, and what you are experiencing and will support you with their love and help...

I will send you love and healing energy, for your heart and soul need it so..... feel wrapped in love....

Tynan Elder Oak

[Annaoj]

Dear everyone,
Thank you so much for the kind messages, you all seem to really understand how I am feeling, and that alone is a comfort! I feel very lucky to be an embryo Bard and to have communities like this to turn to.

Thank you again

[Bheith]

I'm so sorry to hear about your dad, and death can play a toll on us no matter whether expected or not. You will heal in time and yoru father will always be a part of you, in your thoughts and memories, and most important in your heart.

Death is but a doorway to another place and since he was obviously a good man, he will be treated well in his new life. Its the ones who are left behind after one passes that deal with the pain, because of our uncertainty and fear of the unknown and the obvious of missing being with the person in a physical sense...I send you all my light to help you and yours in your difficult time!