, and there are other complications as well. He scheduled me in asap for surgery; laparoscopic, but he is unsure how invasive it will actually have to be, depending what actually happens once he's in. 
I've had a lot of pain and bloating since March, and it's kinda funny - now that i know there's a good reason for the pain, there actually seems to be more of it. I *KNOW* it really doesn't hurt any more than it has for the past few months, apart from the preliminary procedures I had today which were minor, but mentally I seem to have given myself permission to be in more pain than I was before I was told the seriousness of the condition. The mind is a very odd place
Anyway, all thoughts and blessings etc. are appreciated!
in between battling my mind wandering off on its own and trying to get my inner grove visualised, and the birds that seem to chirp when im in the thick of a good meditation...which is funny, cause theres no birds here but i hear them clear as day. (whoops didnt notice this run off until a day later...see what i mean about my mind wandering off -.- lol)
