Thanks LIly and Ghostrider!
As if to prove what you had said about expecting too much of myself, that in the time I took to write my reply in between dealing with the kids, kissing bumped knees and answering the phone etc, the site logged me out and lost it! hahaha!
Perhaps I shall try and get back to basics a bit more, like you say daily meditation, even if I do that while washing up it's still something eh?
It's certainly a lot more difficult to fit all the stuff I used to do around kids and a hubby, so I should stop trying! I hadn't even really thought about it like that, I'd sort of expected I could just pick it up again, and because I don't have time to do the whole super long walk, or long meditation or whatever I'm not doing anything at all, but sulking about it a bit! heehee
Totally know what you mean about the wonders around kids, I love how my bigger girl can find something exciting enough to shout 'look, look mummy' just about anywhere and she can spot a ladybird from metres away! They are amazing critters indeed
but puberty? eeeeekkkk! Just hope they're better than I was....
I hadn't really considered joining a group, I'll have a look and see what is about locally.
I *love* the idea that my brain has been upgraded to a 'with-babies' brain, that has totally made my day!
Certainly writing it all out somewhere public has been helpful in and of itself, so thank you for taking the time to read and write such thoughtful replies, I appreciate it! Thank you both!