I'm sure it is of huge benefit to others going through similar travails.
That is precisely what this thread did for me.
Zylah, thank you for writing and sharing with us here. I'm new here, and haven't been following your story the way it sounds like most have, but I must be in rhythm, as I read your story precisely when I needed to. Though not at all the same situation as yours, I am going through something currently that tests the limits of my strength, volition and wisdom, and reading your experience cemented for me the fact that with clarity of mind and a compassionate heart, absolutely anything on earth can be done. I'm aware that that sounds lofty, but hell if it's not true.
I was so happy when I got to the end of your post and saw the outcome of your hard work (for serious lack of a better term). I can only imagine the benefits you're reaping right now, getting to hug your children on a daily basis, helping them to heal, and I'm sure they're helping you do the same. You deserve some mad applause for your courage. Bob only knows how much better off we'd all be (those of us with families where dysfunction runs rabid) had our parents stepped in to protect us and teach us by example the healthy way to live. Thank you, for your kids, but also for reminding me that happiness and the pursuit thereof is worth any - nay, every - risk.