If we told you, we'd have to kill you, as they say in James Bond movies...
So to all your questions, yes and no.... just enjoy the ride....
There is a reason the material is not public, and there's a reason it comes in monthly packages.
It's nothing "occult" - not like there's knowledge there that only OBOD possesses - it is to make your journey your own.
There are four magical virtues: Noscere, Audere, Velle, Tacere. To know, to dare, to will, to keep silent... not to diminish your or someone else's deep experiences through talk. another reason.
bright blessed days, dark sacred nights
"You cannot reason people out of a position that they did not reason themselves into"