My father introduced me to the Chief of the Order of Bards, Ovates and
Druids when I was 15. His name was Philip Ross
Nichols, but I soon came to know him by his mystical name of Nuinn.
Shortly after our first meeting, I accepted his invitation to the Order's
celebration of Imbolc on 2 February. That evening, over 20 years ago, as
I made my way to Baron's Court, I felt tired and cold. I had spent the afternoon
playing football in the wind and the mud, and I had no desire to celebrate
the first day of spring. I wanted a hot bath and an early night. But there
I was, walking the dark streets of an area of London in which Ouspensky
had lived and taught, and in which the dervishes still whirl silently in
white as the trains of the District and Piccadilly lines run by, so near,
yet caught in another world.
I was greeted by Nuinn and shown into his sitting-room. He asked me to help
distribute sherry and peanuts, and within moments my mood had changed. I
was soon talking to a journalist from The Times, and then with an Irish
novelist, feeling very adult as my 15-year-old body sipped sherry and relaxed
in the warmth of the room. After a while, a blue-robed Bard appeared, inviting
us to descend into the basement. There, in the candle-light, was a circle
of chairs which were quickly occupied, leaving late-comers to stand behind.
On a central table was a glass dish filled with water and strewn with snowdrops,
and out of this water rose eight white candles, all alight.
From an open door, which led in fact to Nuinn's kitchen, the brothers and
sisters of the Order emerged in file, Bards robed in blue, Ovates in green,
and Druids proper in white. The miracle, the wonderful and extraordinary
thing, was that no one burst into laughter. How strange it was to be in
a basement room in London's West Kensington, with two dozen people who had,
a few minutes before, been engaged in standard ritual behaviour, now awefully
and respectfully adapted to a totally new and strange ritual activity. Nuinn
had written about this process 20 years before, in 1946, in his book Cosmic
Shape: 'In festival drama is a possible technique whereby the self-conscious
modern may learn to partake of mass dramatic action and music without the
entry of that paralysing sense of the ridiculous that checks the outward
expression of any form of reverence'. So there we were, and none of us were
paralysed-we were fascinated. Nuinn now entered, distinguished as the Chief,
by a golden emblem of the Three Bars of Light placed on his head-dress-at
the point of the brow chakra, the Third Eye.
'Let us begin by giving peace to the quarters, for without peace can no
work be. Peace to the North. Peace to the South. Peace to the West. Peace
to the East. May there be peace throughout the whole world.'
After dedications, explanations and a prayer, Nuinn continued: ' See at
the centre of man are air and fire. The leaves of the trees speak with air.
In the heart of wood is the seed of fire. Guardian of the Fire, is warmth
prepared?'
'It is prepared.'
'O Ritualist, is poetry in readiness?'
'It is in readiness.'
'Then I declare that this fire festival of the Bards is open for instruction,
for song and for the arts of man.'
A lectern was placed in front of Nuinn, and he began to talk: 'This is the
earliest of the spring celebrations, marking the purity of snow, the clearing
of the debris of winter, the First Ploughing and sowing. It is the only
one of our eight festivals given entirely to the Mother Goddess under many
names, Brighid being the central one of three, each representing a season.
Imbolc is a quiet ceremony, with water, lights and readings showing the
many forms of the feminine in deity. The ceremony is inductive-that is it
aims to encourage the sun, to show that light and warmth are increasing.
The First Plough means confidence in the future. There is the washing of
the face of the earth- the celebration of the Goddess's recovery from giving
birth to the new year's Sun God. It is a festival of virginity, as well
as a festival of purification after childbirth. In the Christian tradition
this celebration becomes the Feast of the Purification of the Blessed Virgin
Mary and the time of the Churching of Women. So here we have the use of
earth and water and light. The snowdrops are traditionally the first flowers
to appear from the snow-they are the flowers of washed purity. We will now
celebrate this festival with music, song and readings.'
As we listened to the Celtic harp of a Breton Druid who was staying at that
time with Nuinn, I gazed at the eight candle flames and their reflections
in the water.....
The other Druids read poems in turn. Then Nuinn again, reading from his
long poem Cosmic Legend:
A reading on the Goddess from Apuleius' The Golden Ass brought the festival
to an end.
The candles were extinguished ceremonially while Nuinn said: 'As the flames
die down, may they be relit in your hearts. May your memories hold what
the eye and ear have gained. I declare this fire festival of the Bards of
Caer Lud is closed in the apparent world. May it continue within our beings.'
Twenty years on, the memory of that first Druid ceremony shines like a beacon
in my consciousness. Each of the following ceremonies has added colour and
depth to an inner mandala that acts like a compass, as I move through my
life and through each year. Imbolc was followed by Alban Eilir, the Spring
Equinox, celebrated looking down upon London from Parliament Hill. Then
came Beltane, when on May Day we climbed Glastonbury Tor to perform a ceremony
filled with deep and ancient symbolism. We were back at Parliament Hill
for the Summer Solstice, which was followed six weeks later by the celebration
of Lughnasadh in a private country garden. Alban Elfed, the Autumnal Equinox
at Parliament Hill, was followed by the inner and magical ceremony of Samhuin
at Hallowe'en, which we celebrated in Nuinn's house. The eightfold mandala
of the Druid year was completed with the celebration of Alban Arthan, the
Winter Solstice, on December 21.
In 1975 Nuinn died and with his death the Order moved into a period of winter
sleep. I began training as a psychologist, and the romantic years of initiations
on Glastonbury Tor, and ceremonies on sacred hills, gave way to a decade
of academic work and family life. The ability of psychology to address human
suffering became my main concern, and the teachings of the Druids seemed
to me at that time of little relevance to the problems of the contemporary
world. I had seen that the path of the esoteric could provide as many pitfalls
and cul-de-sacs as it could provide insights and inspiration, and it seemed
that only a thorough analysis of the human mind and character could safeguard
one from the escapism and distortions of the occult.
Looking back it seems as if the post-war generations have been accelerated
through an unparalleled process of psychic development-the decade of material
stabilization of the fifties was followed by the mass initiations of the
flower power era in the sixties. No one would deny that the excesses and
abuses of the drug culture caught many in a dangerous blind alley, but most
of those souls who had been initiated by the expansions of consciousness
triggered by either psychedelics or simply the extraordinary energy generated
during this era, were carried into the next chapter of their development
by the evolutionary wave that moved them in the seventies towards the spiritual
guidance of gurus and teachers, who evoked not only devotional qualities
in individual souls, but awakened thousands to the power of group consciousness.
As the decade drew to a close, the power of the gurus seemed to turn negative,
just as the quality of flower power turned bad at the end of the previous
decade. But the wave carried on, and although the undertow caught some souls
in the cult-trap, the crest of the wave carried the majority for ward into
the eighties-to a time in which the empowerment of the individual became
the prime work. The external way-showers of psychedelics and gurus were
no longer appropriate. Human Potential training in all its guises became
the dominant vehicle for human transformation. Still seated in a circle,
it was no longer the sacred pipe that was passed, nor the guru that was
adored, but it was the individual self in relation to all the other selves
in the group that was honoured. And what circle will we be seated in, as
we move into the final decade of the millennium?
Way back in other lives, we have been seated in tipis and in groves; our
grandparents sat in spiritualist circles, and we- as we were hurled through
the post-war psychlotron-have sat in occult and psychedelic and new age
and growth group circles. But I ask again-which circle will hold us as we
move into the nineties?
1984, nine years after Nuinn's death, found me practising as a psychotherapist.
Although I had kept all my Druid papers, I had not thought of Nuinn or the
Order for years. I was meditating one morning, when suddenly, he was there-six
feet in front of me. 'Look around you,' he said. 'There is a place for Druidry
now. Man has lost his connection with nature. Any thing that can help heal
the split is of value. Druidry can offer a way to reunite man with his home,
which he is destroying.' He then gave instructions which were to result
in the Order beginning a new cycle of activity-with astonishing conse quences.
After this experience it became clear to me that the final decade of this
millennium would be a decade of the 'Turning Without'. We had been accelerated
through 30 years of soul development, of building a knowledge of the inner,
precisely so that we would be ready to turn outwards with that awareness,
to the planet and to all its kingdoms-human, animal, plant and mineral -in
order to redress the imbalance we have created since the scientific revolution.
The only circle that would hold us now would be the circle of the whole
earth-and the physical circles that we would sit in, would be formed not
only for self-development and support (for those needs will never cease)
but would also be for the work of planetary healing and for the building
of concrete and specific projects to aid this work.
The fact that in the coming decade we will turn increasingly in our work
to resolving the planetary crisis does not mean that we will cease the treading
of our spiritual path. Just as outer reflects inner, we step forward on
our journey whether that step results from concern for the outer world or
concern for the inner. The following notes of an inner experience of guidance
by Nuinn will make this clearer.
Deep in a quiet wood in Oxfordshire Nuinn would go for periods of solitude
and communion with nature. He owned a small piece of natural woodland that
was part of a much larger private forest. He had bought it before the war
from friends of my parents, and there he had built a few wooden huts, and
there he would cook by an open fire, meditate and walk in the forest, storing
up energy in preparation for his return to the city.
One of the main effects of a retreat there came from the utter simplicity
of the place. There were very few things. He kept warm at night by using
a thick sleeping bag, and in the evenings by making fires of the dead wood
he had gathered during the day. It was like camping, but with the pleasant
difference of having a dry wooden hut to sleep in, rather than a cramped
tent.
The simplicity of surroundings matched the simplicity of diet that I submitted
to, during the following experience on the inner planes: 'You will eat nothing
but apples for three days, and drink nothing but hot water and apple juice,'
announced Nuinn eagerly scrutinizing my face for signs of resistance.
'So that's what that crate of apples was doing in the back of your car?'
'Yes, what more can we need?' he said with a smile.
'Nothing, absolutely nothing' I murmured, thinking that maybe my friends
were right and that he was slightly mad. Maybe I'd get ill, or go green.
'I undergo this retreat eight times a year.' I was astonished -he had never
mentioned this before. 'For a week before the Solstices and Equinoxes and
for three days before each of the Fire Festivals, I come here to rest and
fast and be transformed. Do you know how old I am?' 'No. About 50 I suppose.'
'I'm 69. The reason I look younger is because I have followed this practice
for years, which was taught me by my predecessor. If you can follow it,
you will find it will change your life -increasing your energy, vitality
and health, and ultimately your longevity. There's nothing complicated about
it, just as there is nothing complicated in Druidry. You just have to remember
a few things. Firstly, the psychological and emotional attitude should be
one of freedom, detachment and rest. Tell your self that during this period
you will set aside all your worldly concerns and cares. Live in the greatest
simplicity-it helps to be without electricity and all which that brings-telephones,
televisions and radios. Try not to think overmuch, but commune as much as
possible with Nature-with the sun and stars, the trees and the earth. Spend
your time watching animals and birds, and allow yourself time to dream.'
He said this last phrase with emphasis, looking at me kindly, as if to say
'This is particularly for you'. I was a serious sort of person, and looking
back, he was quite right-I needed to give myself the freedom to dream.
'Physically, it should be a period of rest and regeneration and cleansing
for your body. We all eat far too much, and the wrong kinds of food. The
Ancients have always carried as part of their tradition, a teaching concerning
the proper use of fasting and diet. As regards the subtleties of the esoteric
doctrine of diet you must wait until the higher grades, but as regards cleansing
and fasting, and the elementaries of our understanding of diet, we can begin
now.'
As if he realized that he had provoked a fascination within me, he changed
tack, and having poked and adjusted the fire, he said 'The whole question
of glamour and fascination and mystery must really be thought through by
you. You must ask your self why you are interested in the Druid and Arthurian
mysteries, in ley lines, megalithic remains, astral travel, numerology,
sacred architecture, alchemy, mythology, ritual, festivals, and all that
sort of thing. I would say that this interest has both a healthy and an
unhealthy side to it. The healthy or beneficial aspect lies in the fact
that these studies can promote self-knowledge, spiritual development and
a greater awareness of the wonder and complexity of life. The unhealthy,
disturbed, or hindering aspect lies in the possibility that these interests
could be a form of escape from the real world, from properly and creatively
engaging in the outside world and its challenges. This is a danger we should
always bear in rnind. It is one of the functions of a spiritual guide to
ensure that this happens as little as possible. If you are attentive to
your own psyche and to events occurring in your life, you will see that
these interests follow cycles-wide patterns like the seasons. There will
be times when you will set aside these concerns and work openly and vigorously
in the world -turning towards inner things at such times in your life may
even seem distasteful, because your psyche will not need it, and to force
it would be like forcing yourself to eat a food that your body reacts against.
I sometimes sense these periods as summer times when we are outside working
in the sun, intensely aware of the outer world. At other times, autumns
and winters of our psychic lives perhaps, we turn towards these inner studies
and practices, and we feel depths which were not satisfied by our outer
work. And again, if we force ourselves to carry on in our outer way, we
will feel uncomfortable. We will sense, even if unconsciously, that we are
unbalanced, that our concerns are superficial, that our inner selves are
not satisfied. Of course these seasons occur in miniature cycles within
the wider ones. In other words, during one day you may well move from one
to another; but there is a way in which these patterns also occur over a
longer time-scale, lasting months and years, sometimes even lifetimes. If
a soul has spent a whole lifetime in contemplation and inner work, as a
monk for example, he may spend his next life in almost total outer activity
as a compensation.'
This piece of teaching from Nuinn clarified my awareness that we should
create forums and vehicles which can express both our need for outer activity
and for inner work-with both of these contained within an all-embracing
spiritual context. Said another way, for many of us there has been a conflict
between our ecological concerns and our spiritual concerns. Some of us opt
for outer action in the political, social or environmental arena, having
decided that inner concerns are an indulgence we can ill afford in such
troubled times. Others of us, knowing that changes in consciousness precede
changes on the physical level, opt for inner work and self-development,
seeing outer work as labouring with effects rather than causes. The rhythmical
seasonal analogies of Nuinn helped me to see that we can integrate both
approaches, fulfilling the need for both outer and inner work, and that
the 'earth religions', such as Druidry offer a way of doing this. The revival
of interest in these 'earth religions' points to the growing awareness of
the necessity to combine our spirituality with a reverence and care for
the earth.
It is undeniable that there is a renaissance of interest in these natural
religions throughout the world. A part of this renaissance reflects the
need in the collective unconscious to redress the balance that has been
disturbed by the dominance in our religious consciousness of the patriarchal
religions of the Judaeo-Christian and Islamic worlds. This imbalance has
resulted in a disturbed relationship to the planet herself, and the renaissance
can be seen as the manifestation of human and divine concern that this relationship
be made harmonious and the earth be thereby saved. Rather than seeing the
revival of interest in earth religions as regressive-harking back to primitive
times -the upsurge of interest demonstrates quite the opposite trend -one
of progression, in which we meet the old wisdom at a new turn of the spiral
and see that we need its sense of the sacredness of all life if we are to
survive as a species and planet.
A great deal of interest is currently being shown in Native American Indian
ways, and many of their teachings and practices are sirnilar to the western
ways of Druidry and Wicca. Druidry and Wicca are distinct and separate manifestations
of the Western path, and the best way to consider them are as brothers and
sisters-within the same family and therefore sharing family characteristics
but also separate, with characteristics peculiar to themselves.
Druidry is biased towards a reverence for the sun, whereas Wicca is biased
towards lunar reverence. Wiccan work is often concerned with polarity, whereas
Druidry does not stress this aspect to such a degree. Both, however, work
in a circle, with the four quarters and four elements, and celebrate the
seasonal festivals.
The renaissance of the natural spiritual paths coincides with the world
ecological crisis. As half the forests of Scandinavia and Germany are diseased
or dying, and as only 30 years remain, according to some estimates, before
the world lung of the Amazon forest is totally removed, some of us become
concerned with the spiritual power and meaning of trees. As the air and
sea and land become polluted, and as the sun's rays become capable of endangering
our lives due to the ozone layer damage, some of us look at the four elements
in a new light, and want to work with them in a spirit of reverence and
respect.
The Old Magic sought to command the elements, but in this age we are seeking
not to command or dominate, but to venerate and learn from these forces
which we have threatened so severely.
The upsurge of interest in natural ways has its distortions, as does any
great movement in consciousness. Just as the flower power, guru and Human
Potential movements had their charla tans and their casualties, so too does
the new wave of natural spiritual concern have its pitfalls of the escapism
or glamour of occult or tribal culture, and a regressive interest in the
sexual or spell-working aspects of paganism, but this should not blind us
from seeing the purity and urgency of this new movement, for it is not the
externals to which we should pay attention, but the inner attitude and direction-which
is one of deep concern for the environment and one of following a spiritual
way which unites the natural earthly self with the divine, spiritual self.
Seated by the fire in another inner experience of guidance with Nuinn, he
helped me to answer my earlier question: 'You ask what circles we will be
seated in, as we move through the final decade of the millennium. Perhaps
they will be ones which recog nize and work with the qualities experienced
in the previous decades-with the power of love, the power of reverence and
group consciousness, and with the understanding of the needs of the individual,
but hopefully there will be no manipulations by charismatic figures, no
leaning on externals other than the support of the group and its work. They
might use as their com pass the mandala of the natural world, which is the
mandala of the earth and her seasons. The ecological crisis would act as
a focus for both the inner work of the circles, and for particular projects
which they may initiate in response to the needs of their local environment.
Understanding that crisis precedes evolution, they would be able to work
with hope and confidence in the future, but with their feet firmly planted
on the ground.'
Now I knew why Nuinn had taken the trouble to pay a visit after he had left
this plane. The Druid path was too important to remain hidden in the times
that lie ahead, and although it can by no means be treated as a panacea
for all the problems we face, it clearly offers a dynamic way of working
in the world through this coming decade and beyond.